blog number six

So thankful for change

No better time then now to get back into blogging. So much has happened in the past 8 months and I am so thankful that Im still here in a stronger postive mindset. When the world went on a shut down, this was hard for me. I didnt realize how much I was so dependent on being “on the go”. I was the girl that ate out everyday, always planning my weekends in advance and made sure my google calander was full as possible…. then I was put in a situation where my normal routine was gone.

During that time in self isolation, everyone had differernet but meaniful experiences. For me, the first couple weeks of the three months was tough…extremely tough. The first weeks I felt like my brain was focused on the worst, I was in fear, sense of being lost and depressed because I wasnt able to socialize with my friends and family.

After weeks of going through all these negative emotions, it took a giant cry into my boyfreind’s arms and a long discussion of my true fears that really allowed me to put my mind to a positive mindset. My true fear was not knowing the outcome, not being able to predict that my freinds and family were going to be ok, not knowing when I can see, touch the people I love. These were the obvious reasons why I was so sad and angry but it was when I was able to talk and hear myself address my fears that allowed me to have a little comfort. I was able to put a little ease to my fearful anxious mind.

Its October now and during Canadian Thanksgiving I was able to spend some time with my family and friends. I had three Thanksgiving dinners in the span of three days. I am stuffed and exhausted but I know its nothing to complain about. These dinners brought a sense of normacy and I really enjoyed it. It was lovely to see familar faces and hear familiar laughter over a great meal.

I will never be able to predict what will happen during a pandemic however just like the cliche: I can “ make this day the best one” . For my sanity this is the motto I will definitely try to live by. Appreciate every single moment. Utlize time as an oppurtunity to learn about yourself and love someone more.